Can someone turn off the lights please............

Sometimes everything seems so hollow..
i guess that must be when despair wins and we give up....
sometimes i start feeling absolutely hopeless about almost everything....i feel like i am geting sucked inside this big,dark black hole....
if i knew 'why' i would be the perfect human being..aint i??
or is it may be i had stopped risking myself or my happiness, and now when i am trying to do so, to be purely more happy, i feel its all very stupid...
there s nothing like being more happy or something...ur just happy or ur not....
but some sane person had told me that i should strive for the HAPPIER Me...rather than settling on being just "HAPPY"!!
huh?????
dilemmas.....confusions....chaos...
my chemistry teacher used to tell us that wipe of the word CONFUSION from ur dictionary....now i know how costly its proving!
i thought the confusion ll drive me to lead to enlightening facts about myself,about life, about everything in general.....ya being confused helped...being in a dilemma always helped cos that way i could gauge so many aspects of...anything...
the picture was never pure black and white! i could see all the colors...not just the good or the bad....
And now when i want to see something pure black and white, it aint helping me...
bah.............
why are we born with such pieces of grey matter which produce intellectually stimulating thoughts..... :-/
Can someone tell me how to shut this thing off, please????
{dont tell me go and booze cos it does not ve any effect on me :D}

BiG deaL

gosh.......
It was yet another Sunday on my calender...
And i dint want to open my eyes for "yet another nightmare" (normal
people open their eyes after seeing a nightmare but this is something not normal
we are talking about :D )
I guess god dint want me to "rest in peace" even on Sundays so he gave
me this highly impractical urge to shift with one of my bestest
friends...

To cut a long story short, me and my best friend ve been living in the
same city but in distant localities for more than a year now. The
monotony and boredom of work life (read normal life as well :D)
motivated us into shifting together.
So here we were, searching for a nice 1 BHK flat in a big,bad city
ruled by the 3 M's (MONEY, MONEY and MONEY .... :P) When people of our
age were busy sleeping it off on Sundays and partying hard and late
into the night on Saturdays, we two, poor souls, were struggling to
get a place to live, on every weekend now, for the past 5 weeks. God
surely had plans to show ~No MERCY~ on us :D
No offense sir!
That's exactly how i felt when i used to call the property agents and
they all (ya all, not a single exception) after promising to show the
flat on the same day at some decided time, never used to turn up or
used to chuck off the deal saying that the flat's already booked by
someone else.
And moreover i had almost spent last 5 weekends with my best friend
i.e. i practically ended up dating her for no reason :-/
Weekend after weekend was turning into a fiasco. The frustration had
already crossed "above dangerous" limits. The whole house hunt topic
had become a canker for me. I had bitter fights with my friend,
thought we were too foolish to even think about something like that.
In short i had started losing HOPE :-)

So on this, no different, Sunday, we again went out on HOUSE HUNT!
I already had a rotten week, so was kinda prepared for anything!! Cos
worst would have been another failed attempt, right?? :D
The day was uneventful as usual, property agents dumped us! Nothing
new and adventurous!
We were wandering from park to park and were inviting unwanted and
unwarranted attention :D
And then we were attacked by DEMENTORS (for beginners they are
happiness sucking damned,imaginary creatures) !!!
u are supposed to think about ur happiest memory when attacked by
dementors, but my brain was failing me!
And then it happened, my phone started ringing!
Some property agent like a Patronus had called up to show us a flat at
that very moment!!!!
But life has an uncanny way of getting back to u :) It was a 2 BHK, meaning
higher rent,higher deposit...well that was out of question now, cos we
were ready to give anything for a good locality and a good,clean flat!
There was another catch, the agent wanted us to take "decision" in
t-15 mins cos there were many contenders for the place ( it was HOT
property, u know :D)...the crunchy situation demanded a lot and we
took a brave decision of taking the offer...

well the story does not happily end there...

After finalizing the deal with the agent, (yup u have to finalize it
with them first and then get in touch with the owner, this is the
standard way the Vicious circle works! that means u have to pay the
owner as well as the agent!) we sat in the parking of the same
building which was now supposed to be our ABODE, for more than 2 hours
, waiting for the owner.
Mr.BEEZZZIIEEE BEE arrived at a late hour and brought with him some
gang of other agents. Looks like the news of the HoT property going
away had spread like wild fire and the other agents had come to
confront the owner!! :D We surely were in the middle of some gang
war....MANNNNN it was so exciting! We (me,my friend and the owner, and
ya our agent :-)) were gheraoed by the rowdy gang of agents.
I don't know how we managed to wriggle out of the situation, but all in
all, this whole HOUSE HUNT thingie was turning into quite a show with
enduring performances by Me and Ketaki!
We finalized the deal at exact 5 past 9 PM that day, a very auspicious
time for making property related deals, according to the Great
Jyotishi NightFlier Kelkar!!! :P

So do deewane had finally found an Abudana in this ajnabee shaher! :)
Now a minor task of finding 3 more roomies to share the expenses with
is remaining :-)
God surely ll ve MERCY on us this time! :-)

For the Greater Good!

the setting was perfect!
the atmosphere a bit cloudy, in fact it had started to drizzle..
very scarce traffic on the roads, to make my passage to the shop easier..
I was walking briskly with an umbrella in my hand...
I was talking to my dad, in an excited tone, on my way..
he too was excited cos speaking to one's lazy bum daughter at 6.30 am s pretty weird.. :D
I was tellling him, how I would be disappointed if the shop s not open by now..
in the mean time asked him to switch on the TV to gimme some news on the book's release!
To my amazement, the shop was open (only a dumb person like me can think of a closed shop on the release day of last book of the series :)) and there was no crowd outside at all (so again I was proved wrong ;-)) Murphy's laws work for me then,I guess !
I hung up the phone and smiling at myself for my stupid thought process entered the shop...
WHOA!!!!!
there were at least 100 people in the queue inside the shop..
grudgingly, cursing myself for being lazy, for underestimating people's enthusiasm, I got into the queue...
surely Rowling has done a lot of good for the reading community..imagine people from all age groups turning at 6-6.30 in the morning for collecting a book which many think is just about magic...
the book s not only about magic..its about relationships, adventure, motivation, sacrifice, human nature, human mistakes and above all superb storytelling....
Kudos to Rowling for rekindling that desire to read in many who had given up and for coming up with stories, with such a high sense of clear logic and for her extraordinary writing skills..

coming back to reality .....
the charged atmosphere took over me slowly..the excitement seized to contain itself inside me anymore...I started chatting with a female in front of me and I was there..dint even realise that mera number had come!!
the moment was magical..I had HARRY POTTER and THE DEATHLY HALLOWS in my hand.. Finally...

I had a big, big, big grin on my face...I winked at myself.. as dumbledore does when he eats one of those Bettie Bott's every flavor beans..
with remotely any idea about the book, the plot I walked on...
for the greater good!!!

THE D-DAY IS FINALLY HERE!!!!

Its 7 hours to go now (INDIA time), when the book ll officially be released in some part of the world....
Its more than 15 hours to go now (again INDIA time), when I ll have my own copy in my hands!!!!
GOD......this is high testing time for me..
cos I have a few pirated copies of the book which I m so tempted to read, but cant lay my hands on, as I m bound by some stupid thought process of mine which says SAY NO TO PIRACY....
the righteous me always wins such battles...
cos now she knows that the lazy me wont maarofy fight to even open the pirated copies..
its just 15-16 hours to go right????
there are so many things at stake...
some bets to be won (which I am sure I'll win :D), much important work to be procrastinated..just so that I finish the book before all my friends before getting to know the climax and crux!!!
bets...hmmm...some interesting ones...
1. WHO ll DIE????
2. WHICH OF the PIRATED COPIES IS THE TRUE ONE ??? (well, I had to read a few pages of each to form an opinion :D, hope righteous me dint mind that :D)
I hope and pray that I win,I win,I win.......
well, actually its obvious, that I m going to win :D
losers be ready!!!
saw the fifth movie yesterday...really sad to know that how Rowling lets them make movies on her books!!!
I mean the movie had bits and pieces of the book...
but it surely refreshed the 5th book for me!
I was touched by the scene when Serius dies... :(
I was literally crying!!!!!

well, the anxiety and the excitement is so much to contain that I had to give it an outlet...
HAPPY READING POTTER FANS!
I wish I had it in my hands right now :-)

cheers!!!!

Blah...Blah..Blah....

does writing require mood?
mann me in no mood to write...
but nothin to do so.....
exact one week back started this thing...
so lets celebrate!!
first weekly anniversary of my blog!!
phew...sadness....
this ll surely make the server crash :D

some interesting stories to tell though..
me thinks the bus driver of the bus in which I come to office everyday should have been on the F1 circuit...
all right exaggerating..
at least not into driving some piece of crap (read the pathetically sad buses we ve to commute in!!)
he never brakes his vehicle...ya right the bus..at any stop..
people want to call him names let them...but this banda just keeps on driving..
whooosh...like that he comes and whooosh like this he goes...
but still I make it a point to catch his bus only :D
and sit behind him...its like someone's given me royalty for that seat..
its a weird vicarious feeling to be in the driver's seat at least for some time..
I look at the roads through his eyes..and I love it..
the speed and his energy (he must be above 60 at least!) just gimme life to live through just another daY!
whoosh...whash...idhar se cut udhar se cut and there we are...in office in 30 mins...
thats a feat considering the traffic and the rains nowadays :D
mann he makes me feel like a kid...
I want to tell him all this one day...that sir you make a difference to people's lives..
thumbs up to you uncle!
cheers!!

NightFlier breaks free!!!!

PROCRASTINATION was the key till now.....
now no more....
NIGHTFLIER breaks away in bright daylight (though its a been pouring here for the past 4 days :D)
for beginners I ve taken to blogging publicly here, sitting in my office with very small outlets for my intellectual juices..
I m a person of conviction and dont do things until m completely convinced bout em..
I was in my regular mode of self retrospection and got totally convinced about bloggin..
this thought struck me when I was supposed to be brainstorming in a DP (thats so called defect prevention in IT terms) for my design defects..may be now you all know how big IT companies work so effectively :D
and there s another reason too...
earlier whenever my crazy thoughts dint used to have an audience, I used to go to my dearest DIARY and write pages and pages...
with IT culture getting totally inculcated in me (read the laziness,the tendency to put away things till indefinite time,the chod na yaar attitude,etc,etc) my dear diary has just become a fragment of my past :D
and last but an important reason is that my thoughts were getting stagnated, and for the sole reason of expressing myself loudly, this attempt...
and I aint kiddin, I have a habit of seeing things through...
so jab tak mera haath aur dimaag chalega ye space khali nahi rahega :D
cheers....
I expect a warm welcome :D