To,
whomsoever it may concern..
that was all crap...
thats the most stupidly contradictory thing i have ever written in life..
i have been plagued by fatigue, stress and the entire family (yes dono side ke relatives like frustration, chid chid....) for the past month..how can i feel wonderful ??
confused as ever..
u know what, in fact i m feeling helpless..
i have been making fuss about lot of things lately..
and when i realised this..i thought its better to let things as they are..
cos i cant control what others think and do..ab koi devtaa to nahi main..ya fir this aint any game where im god's favorite and bestowed with infinite power to control others and rule them !!!
so in short and in order to stop making fuss/issues about things, i have started minding my own business..
now some people think thats being selfish.. :(
sadly it is..but it saves tons of eneriges of a malnourished and working (thats sone pe suhaga in devil's own tongue!) IT professional who is going through a tough phase.. (read between the lines, for a workaholic soul being on bench is tough! for someone who loves each and every aspect of mother nation, the prospect of leaving it behind is tough!)
'my mind' is already playing all sorts of loser games on 'my mind'.. :(
nowadays simple things like opening a word doc, seem like solving da vinci's riddle..
i feel aged and weared out..
though one part of me is dying to explore the newfound horizon, the other still wants to read many untouched/unfinished chapters..
and worst is they aren't even fighting/pulling/pushing each other..so it makes all this even more difficult..
to make it simple I AM TIRED !!
regards,
nightflier
P.S. this is a much needed outburst :)
P.P.S. every word i wrote yday is true to my knowledge :)
I feel wonderful ...
I am going through one of those life defining phases ..
(guys dont be disheartened, i aint getting married :D its too early for that !)
I am not sure about many things i m doing, but tell u what, these are molding me..
i somehow hate to define myself, cos human mind has no bounds..who m i to define it..
(sometimes i do feel like a speck in this vast 'underworld' !)
coming back to things which make me feel wonderful..
the first rains..yes they hit pune yday..before mumbai..may be pre-monsoons..who cares..
the sun plays luka chupi all day..and suddenly the sky becomes a kaleidoscope of colors..the colors touch ur soul..and it starts to pour (rain would be a simple word to describe what it was initially!)
the hazy images of ppl running for shelter (most of them), some enjoying the shower and some just sipping the coffee (like me) and observing, these are the things which come to my mind right now..
i dont know why i feel so overwhelmed..
may be its the feeling that nature remains the same wherever u go..i have observed it..and hope it helps me embrace the new place, people and country with open arms..
every time nature changes its shades..i get nostalgic..i time travel and ohhhhh......
its just wonderful..
enough to make my day !!
i have enjoyed every moment since yesterday..
a walk in the rain all alone..
the prattle of my roomies over dinner..
the early morning (today!) sunrays..
the tree beside my bedroom..
Hope nature does the same to everyone of u..make u feel blessed..
Life s beautiful indeed !
(guys dont be disheartened, i aint getting married :D its too early for that !)
I am not sure about many things i m doing, but tell u what, these are molding me..
i somehow hate to define myself, cos human mind has no bounds..who m i to define it..
(sometimes i do feel like a speck in this vast 'underworld' !)
coming back to things which make me feel wonderful..
the first rains..yes they hit pune yday..before mumbai..may be pre-monsoons..who cares..
the sun plays luka chupi all day..and suddenly the sky becomes a kaleidoscope of colors..the colors touch ur soul..and it starts to pour (rain would be a simple word to describe what it was initially!)
the hazy images of ppl running for shelter (most of them), some enjoying the shower and some just sipping the coffee (like me) and observing, these are the things which come to my mind right now..
i dont know why i feel so overwhelmed..
may be its the feeling that nature remains the same wherever u go..i have observed it..and hope it helps me embrace the new place, people and country with open arms..
every time nature changes its shades..i get nostalgic..i time travel and ohhhhh......
its just wonderful..
enough to make my day !!
i have enjoyed every moment since yesterday..
a walk in the rain all alone..
the prattle of my roomies over dinner..
the early morning (today!) sunrays..
the tree beside my bedroom..
Hope nature does the same to everyone of u..make u feel blessed..
Life s beautiful indeed !
tennis unplugged!
Experienced the pure joy of watching LIVE TENNIS (on TV, obvious) after ages !!
It was battle of the titans as Rafael Nadal took over Novak Djokovic in the Hamburg Master's semifinal.
If i revere Federer, then i think these two stand next in line!
The future of men's tennis for the next 4-5 years looks set (realistically considering Fedex s retirement!)
But this post does not concern the future of tennis..
The reason behind this post is, the author being totally astounded by the quality of the game and the sheer competitive spirit of the two!
The match's start was pretty predictable, with the clay czar taking away the first set! (i missed the first few games). Novak, did fight back but lost the first set 7-5!
Rafa looked unstoppable after the first set with hardly any unforced errors in his kitty..each rally was being played to perfection..every shot was a beauty..specially the drop shots..he used them quite a lot today!
but this was just a snapshot!
in the 2nd set, joker made a comeback..he won it 6-2..it was his chance to play intelligent and at the same time beautiful tennis! He won the crucial 3rd game, by breaking nadal's serve which made the match truly entertaining. All the rallies were a run for money! i dont remember a single point when i dint clap! It was really difficult to cheer any one of the two..i wonder what the crowd went through! Both used almost all the shots available/invented/improvised!
The third set was more of the war of the minds..the survival of the toughest types!
Though joker was broken in the first game itself, he gave a good fight! It was a tense moment when nadal was up with 3-2 and novak looked to level the scores. But the clay king prevailed, he took the crucial lead of 4-2 and then won 6-2 straight, with a highly frustrating match point battle! Frustrating for the two, as its always a treat to watch an amazing game of tennis.
For me, the outcome of the match wasn't so important..it was the pure perfection of play and the hard earned winners! Mind-blowing!
The match statistics also proved this, both were neck to neck in every section..novak's only weak section being the 'break points won'..he could convert only 4 out of 19 into winners to rafa's 5 out of 9! Can be said that it was Rafa's day in the end! Now the final looks really yummy with fedex (i wish he wins) and rafa set on the platter!
My ooh's and aah's and the claps were so loud that my roomy also came and saw the whole match with me and enjoyed! Such was the beauty of the game!
I saw a simply superb tennis match full of action,suspense and drama after eons and the satisfaction i feel is 'better left unexplained' types.. :D
Wonder what those who saw the match live must be feeling!
It was battle of the titans as Rafael Nadal took over Novak Djokovic in the Hamburg Master's semifinal.
If i revere Federer, then i think these two stand next in line!
The future of men's tennis for the next 4-5 years looks set (realistically considering Fedex s retirement!)
But this post does not concern the future of tennis..
The reason behind this post is, the author being totally astounded by the quality of the game and the sheer competitive spirit of the two!
The match's start was pretty predictable, with the clay czar taking away the first set! (i missed the first few games). Novak, did fight back but lost the first set 7-5!
Rafa looked unstoppable after the first set with hardly any unforced errors in his kitty..each rally was being played to perfection..every shot was a beauty..specially the drop shots..he used them quite a lot today!
but this was just a snapshot!
in the 2nd set, joker made a comeback..he won it 6-2..it was his chance to play intelligent and at the same time beautiful tennis! He won the crucial 3rd game, by breaking nadal's serve which made the match truly entertaining. All the rallies were a run for money! i dont remember a single point when i dint clap! It was really difficult to cheer any one of the two..i wonder what the crowd went through! Both used almost all the shots available/invented/improvised!
The third set was more of the war of the minds..the survival of the toughest types!
Though joker was broken in the first game itself, he gave a good fight! It was a tense moment when nadal was up with 3-2 and novak looked to level the scores. But the clay king prevailed, he took the crucial lead of 4-2 and then won 6-2 straight, with a highly frustrating match point battle! Frustrating for the two, as its always a treat to watch an amazing game of tennis.
For me, the outcome of the match wasn't so important..it was the pure perfection of play and the hard earned winners! Mind-blowing!
The match statistics also proved this, both were neck to neck in every section..novak's only weak section being the 'break points won'..he could convert only 4 out of 19 into winners to rafa's 5 out of 9! Can be said that it was Rafa's day in the end! Now the final looks really yummy with fedex (i wish he wins) and rafa set on the platter!
My ooh's and aah's and the claps were so loud that my roomy also came and saw the whole match with me and enjoyed! Such was the beauty of the game!
I saw a simply superb tennis match full of action,suspense and drama after eons and the satisfaction i feel is 'better left unexplained' types.. :D
Wonder what those who saw the match live must be feeling!
being lazy ...
yawn...
i know im being lazy..
yawn...i know im being lazy..
another of those long, scary yawns...
its not helping, i know..sigh..
guess i can blame it on the weather..it got to me..
what do u expect me to write sitting cozy in an AC office, with very little work and loads of forwards to catch up on ???
laziness is bliss..
u can just be that and invite no unwanted work..at home no one will ask u to cook or do the chores, specially with that bored to death expression on ur face..
u can avoid all the possible dates (this is to give an impression of self worth..not that im asked out often!) and get togethers..
u get to lie in ur sheets for time unlimited..
u just nod ur head off in the most annoying fashion, to any argument thrown ur way, with that 'really!' expression on oppsition's face!
basically no one blames u..
they just say 'oh! she is a sloth!! just ignore her'
im telling u all this 'being lazy' stuff is really rewarding!u dont struggle to get noticed, eventually no one notices u and u just bypass the pain inflicted by being in the lime light!u get a world class reputation without paying much for it!
al right..now im contradicting myself..the very enthusisatic and active one!enough is enough..
life's been a whirlwind of 'decision making' for the past two weeks hence every other 'attribute' of me is in hibernated state!if u have read 'blink' u will know that we take major decisions in r lives within 1/11th of a second(something called as thin slicing)!! mindblowing!the silly,stupid brain with its extra powers also gets exhausted by such things!
i had thought after the much hyped resignation to my beloved great indian software firm and two admits in my kitty, life would be on an all together differente path..
alas..
guess this short spell is a premonition to something big coming my way! wat did u just see, a tornado ?? the butterfly effect!!
shower grace on thee, my lord!
in the mean time, will take a short nap, right here right now! at my desk..
a bientot!
i know im being lazy..
yawn...i know im being lazy..
another of those long, scary yawns...
its not helping, i know..sigh..
guess i can blame it on the weather..it got to me..
what do u expect me to write sitting cozy in an AC office, with very little work and loads of forwards to catch up on ???
laziness is bliss..
u can just be that and invite no unwanted work..at home no one will ask u to cook or do the chores, specially with that bored to death expression on ur face..
u can avoid all the possible dates (this is to give an impression of self worth..not that im asked out often!) and get togethers..
u get to lie in ur sheets for time unlimited..
u just nod ur head off in the most annoying fashion, to any argument thrown ur way, with that 'really!' expression on oppsition's face!
basically no one blames u..
they just say 'oh! she is a sloth!! just ignore her'
im telling u all this 'being lazy' stuff is really rewarding!u dont struggle to get noticed, eventually no one notices u and u just bypass the pain inflicted by being in the lime light!u get a world class reputation without paying much for it!
al right..now im contradicting myself..the very enthusisatic and active one!enough is enough..
life's been a whirlwind of 'decision making' for the past two weeks hence every other 'attribute' of me is in hibernated state!if u have read 'blink' u will know that we take major decisions in r lives within 1/11th of a second(something called as thin slicing)!! mindblowing!the silly,stupid brain with its extra powers also gets exhausted by such things!
i had thought after the much hyped resignation to my beloved great indian software firm and two admits in my kitty, life would be on an all together differente path..
alas..
guess this short spell is a premonition to something big coming my way! wat did u just see, a tornado ?? the butterfly effect!!
shower grace on thee, my lord!
in the mean time, will take a short nap, right here right now! at my desk..
a bientot!
may the DEPARTED rest in peace
as the title of the post goes may my saturday also rest in peace :D
Seriously a movie with an amazing starcast, a famous director (martin scorsese..i got a palm ulcer typing that and a mouth ulcer pronouncing that :D wat, wat did u say a sissy who could not score well in english??) and of course a rich producer (brad pitt being one of them :D) should have been watched by me ages ago (ok..at least an year ago..)
but the last time i took time to watch it, my feeble mind could not stand the slang :D
i slept off over a bet with my friend over the *uck count :D
seriously..we do our best to collect new statistics which might help us when we open the great consultancy firm..
which reminds me im digressing (thats a new technique some bloggers like me use to increase the length of their blog post :D)
its a action flick.. (thats another technique in writing which says make abrupt jumps to the point u want to make :D)
excuse me, mr. director (as the name gives my hands creeps, we r goin to address him by his profession :D) i dint hear any dhishum dhishum throughout he movie..as an Indian movie buff i am accustomed to look out for mind numbing, soul stirring, high octane action sequences, where the good guy always makes a comeback and triumphs..
now u'll scream in my ears that it was no Indian cinema..it was a Hollywood movie..
but are not movies supposed to be of universal appeal nowadays, with the cross over cultures wala funda ?? now, now, gotcha..ab jawaab de khadoos :P
one more thing mr. director, in your movie everyone died in the end..there was no social message to be given..very unlike a good movie which has a public service message :D
ha, but the camera did move on a mouse in the end..
im thinking..
ohhhh..very clever..so that was the mouse which gave u inspiration to make a movie on chor and police (cops and goons) who love to play the cat and mouse game..
was it to show a mouse always wins ??
or was it a tribute to the mouse kind ?? wasnt it?
oh my god..so subtle..i respect u so much :D
but sir i have one humble request..with my limited vocabulary of slangs (of course!!), could u come up with an easy on the ears version of the movie, so poor souls like me would comprehend the rich dialogue content ?
i mean i can give u comprehendable or even milder version of slangs you used, so that in my country everyone will understand your master piece and the message it wants to convey ?
and moreover the censor board here would lift the 'A' rating :D
otherwise with your super cool direction and screenplay the movie is really good (i have to change my stand cos of the 'mouse' issue now :D)
may the Departed rest in peace !!!
P.S. it is truly top class movie, just that the slang was something else :)
Must watch if u like racy, action packed films !!
Seriously a movie with an amazing starcast, a famous director (martin scorsese..i got a palm ulcer typing that and a mouth ulcer pronouncing that :D wat, wat did u say a sissy who could not score well in english??) and of course a rich producer (brad pitt being one of them :D) should have been watched by me ages ago (ok..at least an year ago..)
but the last time i took time to watch it, my feeble mind could not stand the slang :D
i slept off over a bet with my friend over the *uck count :D
seriously..we do our best to collect new statistics which might help us when we open the great consultancy firm..
which reminds me im digressing (thats a new technique some bloggers like me use to increase the length of their blog post :D)
its a action flick.. (thats another technique in writing which says make abrupt jumps to the point u want to make :D)
excuse me, mr. director (as the name gives my hands creeps, we r goin to address him by his profession :D) i dint hear any dhishum dhishum throughout he movie..as an Indian movie buff i am accustomed to look out for mind numbing, soul stirring, high octane action sequences, where the good guy always makes a comeback and triumphs..
now u'll scream in my ears that it was no Indian cinema..it was a Hollywood movie..
but are not movies supposed to be of universal appeal nowadays, with the cross over cultures wala funda ?? now, now, gotcha..ab jawaab de khadoos :P
one more thing mr. director, in your movie everyone died in the end..there was no social message to be given..very unlike a good movie which has a public service message :D
ha, but the camera did move on a mouse in the end..
im thinking..
ohhhh..very clever..so that was the mouse which gave u inspiration to make a movie on chor and police (cops and goons) who love to play the cat and mouse game..
was it to show a mouse always wins ??
or was it a tribute to the mouse kind ?? wasnt it?
oh my god..so subtle..i respect u so much :D
but sir i have one humble request..with my limited vocabulary of slangs (of course!!), could u come up with an easy on the ears version of the movie, so poor souls like me would comprehend the rich dialogue content ?
i mean i can give u comprehendable or even milder version of slangs you used, so that in my country everyone will understand your master piece and the message it wants to convey ?
and moreover the censor board here would lift the 'A' rating :D
otherwise with your super cool direction and screenplay the movie is really good (i have to change my stand cos of the 'mouse' issue now :D)
may the Departed rest in peace !!!
P.S. it is truly top class movie, just that the slang was something else :)
Must watch if u like racy, action packed films !!
when in gloom..
There are days when mind just goes on the gloomier track..
nothing in particular interests u..not even truckloads of work or good food :(
ur heart just becomes so soft and vulnerable that an altogether tender side of u opens up..
u start seeing the world in a more emphatic way..trying to feel the vibes people are sending..
and then u realize, there s a lot of chaos in the surroundings..
i realized the importance of a 'smile' the other day ..
was trotting my way to food court when i saw a house keeper coming with a huge floor cleaner, all by himself..
i just opened up the door for him and it made my day..
it was the best moment of the day..
he just gave me an understanding smile :) :)
simple things which make life simpler..
so dear friends, when surrounded by sadness, dont indulge in drinking or while away time listening to sad songs or talking about it..
do ur bit by smiling and being sensitive and patient to others' needs :) :)
P.S. im still smiling :)
P.P.S. i bought my first Saree :)
nothing in particular interests u..not even truckloads of work or good food :(
ur heart just becomes so soft and vulnerable that an altogether tender side of u opens up..
u start seeing the world in a more emphatic way..trying to feel the vibes people are sending..
and then u realize, there s a lot of chaos in the surroundings..
i realized the importance of a 'smile' the other day ..
was trotting my way to food court when i saw a house keeper coming with a huge floor cleaner, all by himself..
i just opened up the door for him and it made my day..
it was the best moment of the day..
he just gave me an understanding smile :) :)
simple things which make life simpler..
so dear friends, when surrounded by sadness, dont indulge in drinking or while away time listening to sad songs or talking about it..
do ur bit by smiling and being sensitive and patient to others' needs :) :)
P.S. im still smiling :)
P.P.S. i bought my first Saree :)
random ...
missed french classes today :(
feeling awful..
wat better excuse than a fevered brain !!
and wat better than a 'fevered brain' as the weakest link for random thoughts :D !!!!
1. why offices/workplaces are associated with cluttered politics and foul play ??
my workplace was a raucous of reproachful activity after we had a meeting over the release of resources from the current project..our first project (which is supposed to be like a back-to-school experience, in terms of learning :D) with the org has got delayed a lot to everyones' dismay..so quite understandable that everyone wants to break free :)
and thats why everyone has started pulling others' legs and shrugging off responsibilities..
some poor souls get into a lot of trouble cos of this (not me yaar..im not itna sajjan :D)..
and it disturbs me..as an overall effect this pollutes the work culture and healthy environment we strive to cultivate..
not something that cant be improved..definitely..
im goin to drop 'get well soon' cards at everyones' desks now :) ob, including mine..itni dumb nahi hoon :D
2. Why marriages are so difficult to arrange ??
from the union of two souls, families, societies, cultures to cause of headaches and heart-burns :-| I am getting to see these things in every light..i like knowing it all but seeing some dear ones suffer is a bit disturbing..
there s a saying in hindi, 'Shaadi ka laddoo, jo khaye wo pachtaye, jo na khaye wo bhi pachtaye' !!
meaning 'the pie of marriage, one who eats also regrets, one who does not as well'
they never thought about poor souls like me, who would shiver at such creepy thought..i mean i love laddoo (specially motichoor ..yum !!! :D) / pie..and these people dare put me in such dilemma or wat they call a dharmasankat..
ahem..i say why dont we change the laddoo to jalebi or the pie to a cookie..something i prefer less..so i wont bother much wat im having :) :)
better still laddoo to kajukatli or pie to black forest pastry which i love..so that i eat it without any thought (negative at least) :D
see i have such simple solutions to problems..consultancy khol hi deti hoon :D
3. why mushy movies still move me and not the daily offerings of the newspaper ??
i saw 'u,me aur hum' the other day..i know boring movie..but still it touched me..not my fault..'it' touched me :D
i wonder why not the daily stories of the newspaper (murders,rapes,gang wars,etc etc)
move me ? may be its the simplicity of Love which attracts me compared to cruelty or wickedness of murders :-|
or may be i believe that good balances the bad, hence i conveniently ignore the bad, thinking goodness will find its way :-|
hmmm.....
4. why some people are loud on the phone ??
i was quietly drafting this blog on my bus travel back to home, when
kirrrrrr.......irrrr......kaboom........
this lady was chattering in her cell like crazy ..'yes, we have these CRs to take care of..why dont u guys..achhha , so how s he now ....blah..blah..'
i mean, lady cant u see, ur polluting the whole janta's shaanti bhari sleep by uttering words like CR and office in the bus ??? and most importantly ur voice intruded my string of thoughts..
>.< >.< (thats how i look when i m angry :D)
i judge her position..right behind me, a slight diagonally seated.. i take my time and turn........ to give a sweet and coy smile instead of 'one-of-those-famous-cold-stares-of-mine' :-| the lady turned out to be one of my project track leads..and miss righteous was talking about uncluttered workplace and all... but hope u know how it is :) karna padta hai yaar ....
5. why is pune so hot ??
i went out of the AC office, in the sun for 10 minutes and had a sunstroke..bad headache and stuff..
and hopefully u know, the consequence..this post :D
now if u want me to be fine, pray for me, cos i cant miss french classes everyday !! :)
bonjour !!!!
feeling awful..
wat better excuse than a fevered brain !!
and wat better than a 'fevered brain' as the weakest link for random thoughts :D !!!!
1. why offices/workplaces are associated with cluttered politics and foul play ??
my workplace was a raucous of reproachful activity after we had a meeting over the release of resources from the current project..our first project (which is supposed to be like a back-to-school experience, in terms of learning :D) with the org has got delayed a lot to everyones' dismay..so quite understandable that everyone wants to break free :)
and thats why everyone has started pulling others' legs and shrugging off responsibilities..
some poor souls get into a lot of trouble cos of this (not me yaar..im not itna sajjan :D)..
and it disturbs me..as an overall effect this pollutes the work culture and healthy environment we strive to cultivate..
not something that cant be improved..definitely..
im goin to drop 'get well soon' cards at everyones' desks now :) ob, including mine..itni dumb nahi hoon :D
2. Why marriages are so difficult to arrange ??
from the union of two souls, families, societies, cultures to cause of headaches and heart-burns :-| I am getting to see these things in every light..i like knowing it all but seeing some dear ones suffer is a bit disturbing..
there s a saying in hindi, 'Shaadi ka laddoo, jo khaye wo pachtaye, jo na khaye wo bhi pachtaye' !!
meaning 'the pie of marriage, one who eats also regrets, one who does not as well'
they never thought about poor souls like me, who would shiver at such creepy thought..i mean i love laddoo (specially motichoor ..yum !!! :D) / pie..and these people dare put me in such dilemma or wat they call a dharmasankat..
ahem..i say why dont we change the laddoo to jalebi or the pie to a cookie..something i prefer less..so i wont bother much wat im having :) :)
better still laddoo to kajukatli or pie to black forest pastry which i love..so that i eat it without any thought (negative at least) :D
see i have such simple solutions to problems..consultancy khol hi deti hoon :D
3. why mushy movies still move me and not the daily offerings of the newspaper ??
i saw 'u,me aur hum' the other day..i know boring movie..but still it touched me..not my fault..'it' touched me :D
i wonder why not the daily stories of the newspaper (murders,rapes,gang wars,etc etc)
move me ? may be its the simplicity of Love which attracts me compared to cruelty or wickedness of murders :-|
or may be i believe that good balances the bad, hence i conveniently ignore the bad, thinking goodness will find its way :-|
hmmm.....
4. why some people are loud on the phone ??
i was quietly drafting this blog on my bus travel back to home, when
kirrrrrr.......irrrr......kaboom........
this lady was chattering in her cell like crazy ..'yes, we have these CRs to take care of..why dont u guys..achhha , so how s he now ....blah..blah..'
i mean, lady cant u see, ur polluting the whole janta's shaanti bhari sleep by uttering words like CR and office in the bus ??? and most importantly ur voice intruded my string of thoughts..
>.< >.< (thats how i look when i m angry :D)
i judge her position..right behind me, a slight diagonally seated.. i take my time and turn........ to give a sweet and coy smile instead of 'one-of-those-famous-cold-stares-of-mine' :-| the lady turned out to be one of my project track leads..and miss righteous was talking about uncluttered workplace and all... but hope u know how it is :) karna padta hai yaar ....
5. why is pune so hot ??
i went out of the AC office, in the sun for 10 minutes and had a sunstroke..bad headache and stuff..
and hopefully u know, the consequence..this post :D
now if u want me to be fine, pray for me, cos i cant miss french classes everyday !! :)
bonjour !!!!
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